Being civil.

I think everyday in my life I'm encouraged and motivated by the actions of others. The steps that people make that take them that little but out of their comfort zone really makes a difference. 

Today I was approached by a girl I was formerly friends with, the funny thing in this situation is that to the best of my ability I am still not able to remember why exactly we stopped talking to each other -stupid I know -_-, don't judge me! Anyhoo, she came up to me and said in these, exact words 'our argument was stupid, let's at least be civil towards one another', to which I replied quite enthusiastically 'Ok! :D' again, don't judge me on the childish reply loooool. 

Anyways, what I'm getting at right now is that, she took a step out of her comfort zone to approach me, which was an alarmingly good start to my Monday morning, it was also encouraging because it made me want to go and sort out any problems I had with anyone else. You see… small step = big change! 

Ahhhhhh, it only the world was that simple, there would be no war, I wonder what would happen if Iran or Iraq or any other country asked America for example, to be civil? 💬

I can be your hero! 🎤

It's amazing how little actions can make a person happy, that bus driver that you smiled at, could be having a bad day & you -yes you!- just brightened it. 

Offering to help that person you don't like because you know it's right -although excruciating- might just brighten their day. Want to know why? Because your the bigger person. 

What I'm trying to get out here is that, you shouldn't just be kind to the people that are kind to you. Not only is that way too easy, but who does that help? 

Personally, I strive to make at LEAST one person smile each day, no, not just with my dashing good looks ;) lol, but because of something I did or said that affected them in a positive way. 

Now I'm not saying try and please everyone (!) because we all know that's near enough impossible (especially when you have that one hater that always has something negative to say at the tip of their tongue -_-).

But if you see an opportunity to make a positive difference, I say you grab it, put it in a headlock and wrestle it down! I mean, who doesn't want to be a hero for the day? 

Is the lie worthwhile?

Want to know what I find really funny? 

Hypocrites! 

I mean funny in the sense that it's just unbelievable that some people are so blinded as to judge someone else when they're doing the same EXACT thing?!!

It's like really? REALLY? 

It's gets frustrating, especially when it's a friend of yours (because obviously this concept is based on real events loool). 

But in addition to this what's also infuriating is the fact that yes, sometimes it's hard to admit your wrong, yeah I get it, we've all been there, but to sit there and lie countless times because of your pride is just shameful. Yes, I'm shaking my head right now just to highlight how despicable (mmmm hmmm des-pi-ca-ble hunny!) your behaviour is. 

But ohh well, who am I to judge at the end of the day? It's not my life or my relationships being messed up.

Also, just to throw it out there, if anyone has a friend like that, who is a recurring hypocrite, please call them out on it, telling the friend of a friend is NOT going to solve anything. Trust me! 

Ooh La La Lingerie ;)

Don't you just love Victoria's Secret… & the irony of it all. I mean it's a secret! Guess why!!! Go on I dare you!!! Guess!!!

Cause your underwear is a secretttt! *GASPS* teehee

Well at least it should be… I for one do not go around advertising my underwear… bikinis are different though… I guess… but why is that? 

How come girls can take pictures in their bikinis with tag lines such as ‘#summertime woohoo’ & all that jazz yet if it's a girl in her underwear -which is more or less the same thing- she's labelled a hoe, slut, whore amongst other profanities? Just goes to show how narrow minded and frankly messed up people are. 

Especially since in today's world sun bathing topless with a thong on is acceptable! Why? Because it's sunbathing not broadcasting your body to hundreds of people on a public beach.  Which is what it looks like to me. 

Maybe I'm just the only one that doesn't wanna have to go to a beach and be covering my eyes because some woman is lounging around in her birthday suit -_-. Maybe I'M the crazy one! 

Unanswered Questions

So many times I've felt like breaking down and crying, the pain proving to be too much for me. To fight something physically holds nothing against a mental war. The realisation that holding everything inside is slowly destroying you and the decent relationships you have left is alarming yes; but not enough. Not enough to make you wanna surrender the only thing you seem to have left. Your sanity. So you keep it within, your problem, your solution right? 

Wrong. Cause when the tide is high and the issues mount up, your unravelling, loosing your cool, slipping up, your guard is down, your vulnerable; who do you turn to? When your problem are uncountable and the solutions unattainable, who do you turn to? Where do you turn to? When it's proven to be too much.

The Emotional Toll.

People don't realise how much comments can affect a person. Not everyone is built the same, not everyone can take an obnoxious comment and brush it off. I would know. But it gets to a point where you realise (no matter how cliché it is) life is tooooo short! It really is! Worrying about what this that and the other has to say to you will only affect you mentally and emotionally, which is not a road ANYONE wants to take! Seriously, I wouldn't wish the stress on my worst enemy guys. 

Just the way it is. 

Letter to myself.

Be proud of yourself, you've come so far. Usually you wouldn't have even considered getting up and going with them but not now. Now your able to walk away knowing you've done the right thing. The careless life no longer interests you. One day I know you'll be able to walk away from them & everyone else who will ever bring any kind of negativity to your life. It's hard sometimes but give yourself credit hunny, remember how you were just a few months ago. It may hurt now thinking you have to let go of everyone but that's not true you should be a vessel in their life show them the way, encourage them that their loved by not only the name above all names but also by you. But most of all share your testimony ! How are you meant to encourage  others and show them how far you've come when they don't even know your story ?! 

It's all good preaching about righteousness and good news, but when you don't share your own good news your a hypocrite ! No way to sugar coat it. 

Love yourself, in all you do and all you say, be who you are in all your flaws, God made you that way and loves you for it. 

Things I hate!

I hate being by myself, like not lonely lonely, like there's no one in site, but like there's no one around that I personally know. It's kind of depressing, I don't like not knowing what to do with myself, loneliness is not my forte, I'm used to being surrounded by people, even if I'm not particularly close to them. Oh my gosh, I also don't like when people look too closely at me too, it feels weird, like they're judging me… maybe it's just me being paranoid.... It feels like you suddenly grew another head of something dumb & stare worthy like that, I dunno… I'm a weirdo, I over think things like that, I look too closely into things… one of them… you decide.